Saturday, December 12, 2009

My Problem(s) with LGBT/queer/LGBTQQIAP Politics/ Politics of Fighting for Equality for Gender and Sexual Minorities

As some of you might know, I'd been very involved with Georgetown's LGBTQ group, GU Pride, for most of my freshman and sophomore years. This semester, I've also been interning at Immigration Equality (a group working for LGBT and HIV+ immigration and asylum), which shares floor space with a lot of important LGBT activist groups.
While for the first year or so, I was just so happy to have found a safe space in which to be out, and where there was an actual gay community (and not just a handful of assorted individuals that I knew at school), that I didn't much care for the politics of it all.
However, the more conscious I become of the politics, the less I like it.

I'll start with something very pertinent one of my residents pointed out to me: the more time and energy you spend fighting each other, the less you are able to devote to fighting for equality.

So true.

However, it's difficult to not fight with each other when Ronald Gold, one of the founders of the National Gay and Lesbian Task Force and driving forces behind removal of homosexuality from APA's list of disorders, blogs about, essentially, the non-existence of transsexuality.

It's difficult to not have infighting when the Human Rights Campaign was ready to support a non-inclusive ENDA.

It's difficult to not have fight one another when some members of the community start pointing fingers at others (within community, or at other minority groups) and start claiming "it's THEIR fault WE don't have our rights."

There is racism, sexism, ageism, fat-phobia, transphobia, cis-sexism, ableism, classism, Western-centric normativity etc. etc. in the LGBT "community", much as there is in the broader LGBT + non-LGBT community. It might even be more amplified, due to the pressures of already feeling like a discriminated group, and being desperate to hold on to some form of privilege. Is it going to disappear because we, to some extent or another, share identites as gender and sexual minorities? Not really. Do we have to continue working against those forms of discrimination though? Absolutely.

Part of the problem why these problems of exclusionary politics seem more acute in LGBT politics is that, frankly, to be able to devote your energies to LGBT politics over most other causes, you have to be in a position of relative privilege -- there's a REAL reason why the LGBT movement is characteristic of post-industrial society. Research has found that people of color tend to view their race/ethnicity, and socioeconomic status, as more defining factors of their identities than their sexual orientation. It's not unsurprising then, that when IE was looking to hire for a job opening, most of the job applicants WERE white and from relatively well-off backgrounds.

When we haven't yet created an environment where people who place other aspects of their identity above their sexual orientation are unable to commit themselves to the cause of the LGBT movement, attempting to enforce invisible quotas won't help. But then, when we're spending so much of our energies fighting each other, it's hard to expect people affected by LGBT discrimination at the same time as other forms of discrimination to spend a significant part of their time fighting for LGBT rights, when they would have fight people within the LGBT community for those same other types of discrimination as they are fighting on the outside, the same racism, classism, sexism etc. Additionally, for many people from racial minority backgrounds,

At the same time, the fact that for various reasons minorities are underrepresented in numbers in LGBT organizations does not mean it's ok for them to be underrepresented in terms of issues. It's not ok that trans issues get ignored in favor of cis-centric issues; that the murder of a white gay man get more coverage than the equally brutal murder of a trans black woman; that issues affecting LGBT people outside the US borders not gain a mention at all. It becomes the responsibility of those who feel they can devote their time to representing LGBT issues to devote their time to ALL LGBT issues and not claim that "hey, the minorities didn't run/apply for this job etc. and therefore, I can't represent their voice".

However, when do we get to a point when we realize that fighting each other, for fights that really are less against each and more against the broader discriminatory forces of society, prevent us from being united on what we do have in common? We do want equality and equal treatment as sexual and gender minorities, though we might have different priorities.

Another (HUGE) fallacy the LGBT movement, I think, seems to fall into is boxing people too much. Take a person and stick labels on them. That's why the LGBT had grown to LGBTQQIAP and heaven knows what other letters: the answer isn't to add to more letters to the acronym and thus exclude people who don't fit the letters you arbitrarily decided to pick in your attempt to be more inclusive. Why can we not settle on a term that identifies our similarities as sexual and gender minorities rather than our differences from one another? The boxing and labeling is also apparent in how we will break people down to the component parts of their identities rather than viewing them as individuals holisitically: you speak for minority issues because you're non-white, you speak for trans issues because you're gender non-conforming etc. etc.

So, where's the solution? Well, part of the solution is to realize that these different fights are not disconnected. Social justice causes are all inter-related, and while, yes, being gay doesn't mean you subscribed to "The Progressives United", it's important to realize that we will not be able to have a unified front as an LGBT community when we're fighting each other over racism, classism and all those other monsters. Which is why it becomes important to fight against them all at once.

It's, unfortunately, too much to ask of anyone though. Because people don't like giving up their positions of privilege, relative or absolute, and heck, when being a rich gay man gives you more privilege than being a poor trans woman, heck, you're going to stick to that privilege. But, you know what? By doing so, you're hurting your own cause. People on the outside will look at you, and see you reinforcing what they think of the society (some people are inherently better than others) and decide that "hey, we're still better than that guy because we're straight".

Monday, February 23, 2009

Drama

Yes, I sometimes get frustrated about how much drama there is in my friends' lives, and I do sometimes complain about it. 
However, most of the time, I think much of the drama is hilarious. Or, at least it is funny when I have to hear only one side of it. 
Scratch that, it is definitely funnier when I have to listen to both sides of the drama. However, it is difficult to keep track of who told me what part of which story. Somehow I always end up mixing up things, or blurting out things when I shouldn't, and getting sucked into the drama-licious whirlpools. Whoops. 
But, honestly, I enjoy that I only have to listen to other people's drama, and not deal with any of my own. That is a GOOD thing. It is actually a good thing. I have a hard time convincing myself that it is a good thing, because while I don't want the drama, I do want the things that lead to the drama (the hook-ups, the dating, the relationships, whatever). (Yes, whatever I need to tell myself. Not that I necessarily believe what I tell myself). 

But. DRAMA IS FUN!
So long as it is just funny, and is not ruining friendships (see last post for how drama could ruin friendships, and why that would be a bad thing). 

Saturday, February 21, 2009

My awesome boys :)

One of my favorite thing about Georgetown are my boys. 
I honestly don't really have any close female friends here, but I do have some close guy friends and I absolutely love them. 
It would be absolutely degrading to the friendships I have with these boys to look at them as fag-faghag friendships, because they really are not. Sure, most (ok, all) of my boys are gay/bisexual but our friendships are definitely not based upon talking about boys, fashion and whatever those "Sex and the City" sort of stereotypes are. Besides, I would not and could not fit anyone's definition of a faghag, so that shouldn't even come into consideration (why did it then?). (Also, I find both those terms incredibly offensive and demeaning, so I don't know why I used them.)
I'm not sure I actually quite understand these friendships yet, in that there are some people I feel so close to that I could almost trust them with my life (well, it could only be almost because I have trust issues. And I should really stop inserting parenthetical statements to things that should be self-explanatory.). I don't think I ever had friendships so close before -- people that I talk to almost everyday without fail, see/hang out with nearly everyday, and most importantly, people that trust me enough to come talk to me about their lives. The last one is what is the thing that is newest for me, because I always felt like I trusted people with too much, too quickly, but never earned their trust in return. Now that I seem to have earned the trust of some people at least, it feels good
Also, I really cherish the fact that I can literally call one or the other of them when I am feeling low (which, this year, has unfortunately been too often) and know that they will listen, and will (sometimes) offer solid advice. That is also something I feel like I never really had before -- I definitely did with one friend (and hopefully, I still have that dynamic with her) but not with any more people. 
Yes, there are definitely major cultural differences between me and my friends. There would be, naturally, given how strikingly different my background is from any of theirs'. However, these differences, I think, sometimes make the friendships even richer, because it helps to look at things objectively at times, rather than getting caught up in cultural contexts and what is culturally appropriate or not. I know that sounds like an incredibly vague statement, but I am not sure how else to explain it. 
Knowing how insecure I am as a person, I do sometimes feel like I am far more invested in these friendships than they are. I also sometimes wonder if these friendships could last beyond the Healy gates, because we are so culturally different, and when I see my aunts and uncles' friends, they are all Indian, and my friends are not. However, I know for sure that I will cherish these friendships while I do have them, and I just feel lucky to be able to have them. (Especially considering how many people I think don't like me, but I won't discuss that, because I don't want to talk about the negative thoughts in my head). 

Post 1. Second Semester. Second Year. Introductory Post.

One of my closest friends asked why I never updated my blog(s) and the only answer I can think of to that is that I just feel too disconnected from my old blogs. It's strange that I feel disconnected though, because I find myself visiting them so often and wondering at how little I have changed. 

Therefore, this is, yes, yet another attempt to maintain a blog. I suppose blogs do help in that they help me gain some clarity of mind and purpose, and lord knows I need that. 

Sophomore year has been a mess so far, but it seems to be getting better. Maybe. I am not sure. 

However, it is definitely not all bad at all, and with this blog, I am going to write about at least one positive thing each time I update (and no negative things at all).