I honestly don't really have any close female friends here, but I do have some close guy friends and I absolutely love them.
It would be absolutely degrading to the friendships I have with these boys to look at them as fag-faghag friendships, because they really are not. Sure, most (ok, all) of my boys are gay/bisexual but our friendships are definitely not based upon talking about boys, fashion and whatever those "Sex and the City" sort of stereotypes are. Besides, I would not and could not fit anyone's definition of a faghag, so that shouldn't even come into consideration (why did it then?). (Also, I find both those terms incredibly offensive and demeaning, so I don't know why I used them.)
I'm not sure I actually quite understand these friendships yet, in that there are some people I feel so close to that I could almost trust them with my life (well, it could only be almost because I have trust issues. And I should really stop inserting parenthetical statements to things that should be self-explanatory.). I don't think I ever had friendships so close before -- people that I talk to almost everyday without fail, see/hang out with nearly everyday, and most importantly, people that trust me enough to come talk to me about their lives. The last one is what is the thing that is newest for me, because I always felt like I trusted people with too much, too quickly, but never earned their trust in return. Now that I seem to have earned the trust of some people at least, it feels good.
Also, I really cherish the fact that I can literally call one or the other of them when I am feeling low (which, this year, has unfortunately been too often) and know that they will listen, and will (sometimes) offer solid advice. That is also something I feel like I never really had before -- I definitely did with one friend (and hopefully, I still have that dynamic with her) but not with any more people.
Yes, there are definitely major cultural differences between me and my friends. There would be, naturally, given how strikingly different my background is from any of theirs'. However, these differences, I think, sometimes make the friendships even richer, because it helps to look at things objectively at times, rather than getting caught up in cultural contexts and what is culturally appropriate or not. I know that sounds like an incredibly vague statement, but I am not sure how else to explain it.
Knowing how insecure I am as a person, I do sometimes feel like I am far more invested in these friendships than they are. I also sometimes wonder if these friendships could last beyond the Healy gates, because we are so culturally different, and when I see my aunts and uncles' friends, they are all Indian, and my friends are not. However, I know for sure that I will cherish these friendships while I do have them, and I just feel lucky to be able to have them. (Especially considering how many people I think don't like me, but I won't discuss that, because I don't want to talk about the negative thoughts in my head).
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